DearG.J.P.,

Everyday,everymomentthatgoesbyIthinkofyou.Mypaintellsmetogiveup,butmyheartsaysIcan"tstoplovingyou.Ispendalldaydreamingofthemomentyouwouldcalltosayyoufeelthesameway.AsmuchasItrytopretend,thetruthis,Ican"tstoplovingyou.Idon"tknowhowtostop.

Iwillcherishthemomentswehavespenttogether,fromourveryfirstkisstoourlast.Imissthewayyoukissme,thewayyoulookatmeandrubmyface,ImissyoucallingmeMs.Maynard(becauseyouknowitgetsonmynerves),Imissyoumissingme,Imisseverythingaboutyou,Imissourphoneconversationsandthewaywewouldspendhourstalkingaboutourcountriesandthewaywegrewup.ButmostofallImissmybestfriend.

Iwillplacethemomentswe"vesharedtogetherinatimecapsuleandhideitinthemostsecretplaceofmyheart.Andmaybe20yearsfromnow,iforwhenwemeetagain,maybethenwecanbothopenthecapsuletogetherandberemindedofourwonderfulfriendship.

Gosh,mylifestinks!ImeanIfinallymeettherightguyandhe"snotavailable.I"minlovewithyoubutIcan"tbewithyou.

But,I"vegottotellyou,forthefirsttimeinmonthsIcanfinallysmilebecausealthoughyoudidn"tsaymuchthelasttimeyoucalledIknewyoustillcared.

Youcankeepondenyingit,youcankeephidingfromit,buttrustmeyouareonlylyingtoyourself.EverydayIaskmyselfwhy...whydoIfeelthisway?Whycan"tIstoplovingyou?Thenitdawnedonme...youputvoodooonme!Justkidding.

BeforeIgoIwantyoutoknowthatyouwillalwayshaveaspecialplaceinmyheart,andlikeI"vesaidmanytimesbefore,Idonotregretanythingwe"vedone.TheonlythingIregretisyoutellingmeyoulovemebecausesincethenyouhavegivenmenothingbutthecoldshoulders.

Pleasedon"tbescared,Iwantnothingbutyourfriendship,well...IdowantmorebutIamwillingtosettle.Iamnottryingtomakeyoufeelbadorpushyoufurtheraway.Iamjusttryingtomakeyouunderstandwhat"sinmyheart.

Iloveyouwithallmyheart...andIwillalwaysloveyou,G.J.P.

Lovealways,

Melissa